Here we are, the final countdown- the last semester.
This semester has, by far, been one of the hardest I’ve ever had. Sadly, up until a few months ago it was designed to be one that wasn’t exactly easy, but at least doable. I wanted to focus on my project (my thesis) wholeheartedly. Instead, I was placed in a position where I had to finish two major projects at the same time. I’m not trying to whine or complain- I could have tried harder to avoid this, and ambitiously, I tried to tackle it. But I guess I need to remind myself and maybe the outside world that if I seem stressed or struggling, it’s because I’m under a ludicrous workload. I have learned my lesson, cross my heart! When in The Real World, I will make sure to leave ample time to recharge and do nothing. I never realized how difficult it can be and how fuzzy it makes your mind when you never have “off”- when every weekend there’s a task or project to do.
You miss out on birthdays, coffee with friends, or even just naps on the couch where you don’t HAVE to be awake for at least an hour. I’ve done a great disservice to my dog by allowing myself to become so busy, and I’m genuinely sorry for it. I know I need a break soon. I’m hoping this summer, things will calm down for me.
In the meantime……there’s always more thesis work to be done.